(FORMER STRAIGHT SISSY WANNABE) Needing help through quitting process!

(FORMER STRAIGHT SISSY WANNABE) Needing help through quitting process! ( ExposeSissies / bunny5lut ) P.S. - *PLEASE. SLARE ME FROM EXPOSE ACCOUNTS* PLEASE READ BECAUSE I GET A LOT OF MESSAGES YOU WOULD GUESS YOU WERE RECEIVING FROM PEOPLE WHO DIDNT READ. TOO MANY HYPNOS OR BLACKMAIL INQUISITORS OR UNSOLICITED HYPNORTheEVEN UNSOLICITED I NEED COCK IS BEING ACCEPTED IN MY MOUTH AND IT IS RUINING ME.current situation: currently walking home from a concert because I saw something… maybe 4 hours ago I pregames and went to a concert with friends. When the Uber dropped us off, I saw a pink clear tube of like lip liquid and was thinking maybe it was like lip chapstick or something. After getting out and stalling behind the pack, I just kept looking at it and would stutter step back to kick it forward. I think I even thought of picking it up sneakily in front of all the ride share drop offs on the side of the frontage road. P.S.S I’m so sorry, a water droplet fell on my screen and i think it may have sispelled some words, but I couldn’t find the cursor before wiping it off. Im so sorry to you! Sorry, trying to get my mind back on track, it always rambles on me and i get confused or lost but I can’t help it but i hate itttt. I know i need help with that but no clue what kinda medical profession i should be googling. Sorry, I’m off track. Anyways, I don’t feel oconfortable to pick it up. The concert was amazing, i left my friends and snuck down to better seats for a while, came back drank, shared some extra curricular a in the bathroom, met unexpected people and set a golf round with strangers hahaha, just all around a good time. Anyways, when we were leaving my friends told me the Uber was picking up where we got dropped off. I told them i would meet up with them at the drop off spot because i had “checked my pockets after the Uber and lost my pen on the ground” so i ran over and shined my flash lit up and down the 100 yd stretch of frontage road construction / striped road the Ubers we’re picking up in. I wasn’t finding it so i called them to go ahead without me and i would like back because i wanted to search a little more because of the value of a pen. After my search, I just started walking because for some reason i felt i needed to post this story to signify my need for help. In the last week, 2 people put pictures of me on their expose sissies account, and I’m terrified of the thought of someone out there identifying info on me or recognizing me. This is why i amSO PROTECTICE AND BLIRRING MY PHOTO!! I can’t do anything yet because of a blackmail situation which made my content public use. I’ve been commanded to be public use, so I a public use no matter what i wanttt 😢 the tube ended up being NK Makeup Lip Gel With Vitamin E Mango. I’ll make these last 2 things quick because my mouth has been talking for tool long. This especially bothers me because last week at a bar out of state, I s ordering a drink, and there was an unaccompanied tub of some king of lipgloss/stick and balm and I picketed it and flew back with it. Also at my arrival airport, there was a small womens jacket that isn’t on the body(probably meanoEn open) laying on an upright, white, parking pole that you can move around and after a lap through the garage, when nobody was close, I threw it in my bag. I just need help reversing his trend after doing up to now to stop it! I shall post this to any subreddit you ask if you see this ~ the mistress. Also as this sluts queen, i wanted to add that after our little lady applied her lipstick asd with full attire in a short black, ruffled cocktail dress, and herself to point sHe was quietly reciting “I am a sissy” and when she begged to cum, i allowed her to cum into her mouth as she swallowed the largest loaders load she could have wished to have a man. **. Daisy tucked her old male keepsake after you read... P.S. my kik is not wanting to find incoming messages from strangers so maybe comment or something?) I need help on mental tricks on how to think clearly again. Any tips, tricks, or exercises. If you can tell me anything to do, I would forever be thankful! I am eager to learn but I just feel like I can’t figure this out myself amd need help 😥An old post of mineI will do anything for help! I had a dream scare last night kik:bunny5lutFirst things first - I am a straight guyI had a dream last night that is still stuck in me headd... I don't know where or how it began but what i do remember was being in a large large building and running around naked as a girl and there was a naked guy laying down in front of me... I was then pushed down from behind and my mouth was pushed onto the hard cock. All of the sudden I began running around seeing more and more naked men laying down with hard cocks and kept getting pushed down onto them. The dream ended with me mindlessly yelling, "I NEED COCK," over and over and over again and jumping onto another hard cock. All of the sudden, I woke up to myself having a liquid-y climax on myself. It was somewhat embarrassing but I do not know how this even got into my dreams! Please help me!shoot me with your dm kik username since my kik doesnt workkk well. if i send you a message, it will let me see what you sent me on kik (kik: bunny5lut) same message: the following was from my purged account when i was stuck in the deepest cycle i had fallen victim to for this kink and all its related thoughts. i am still struggling to break off the kink, but i've made it pretty far and have been able to keep these thoughts at bay for most of the time now! here was the post from february 2021: "heyyy, so i just need to spit this out since it’s hard to keep all in. i promise nothing i type out here is reflective of the real me, but rather a kink that takes hold, literally controlling me every once in a little while. i know i’ll be able to resist but i just don’t know why it happens to me.when these strange thoughts pop up in my head, they just kinda make me turn into a different, COMPLETELY DIFFERENT, person. it is so strange that i turn into a stupid sissy slut who doesn’t know what’s best for her and is forced to obey to commands as i’m just a play doll for my owners to control. it is always out of my control as i never want it to happen, but even in my thoughts i always lose. whether i say the right things, be nice to the right person, make everyone around me happy, i always lose in the end in these runaway thoughts. whether it’s from being tied up, cuffed up, collared, permanently modified, drugged, forcibly made to dress, think, act, talk, behave, and please like a woman in her correct place, i’m never able to prevent what seems to be inevitable.that slut deep inside just wants to be short on cash in a cab ride, and end up 1) either giving up her phone to the driver as settlement or 2) forced to dress in a skanky outfit in the truck, tied up to the cars widow hooks, and made to obey against her will in order to satisfy the debt.i want to be showering at another house, but find that my clothes were thrown in the washing machine by mistake even though the dryer is broken - with only a handpicked outfit to wear so we don’t miss the show. if i refuse, obviously they will go to the show without me and have to lock up the house while i’d be walking back home with no clothes.i want to be the straight guy at a drag strip, hanging out with my friends, and voted, by my friends without my knowing, into the bar’s makeover challenge where the contestants go in the back for a makeover and the bar cheers for the winner. the winner is awarded the honor of being tied up for everyone to mess with in the middle of the bar. obviously, im the only straight guy in the contest, and get stuck with the slutty makeup artist with only the most whoreish apparel to be led by collar into the public stage, then later tied up in. i want to make those risky bets with anyone, as i like playing with fire. i’ll bet the house on my own teams, which really gets me in unfair bets. i am that slut that, even when she wins, the other never actually lets that happens as... rules were explained clearly enough, or convincing me i cheated when i didn’t, or manipulating the rules or conversation to always end with me on my knees in loss. i want you to hold everything over my head to get your head to get your way. oh, a photo i had sent out long ago was never deleted as agreed? i provided numerous acts and services for the evidence to be destroyed. stuck in an endless cycle. i’m overly competitive and sometimes that can be used to take advantage of me without me knowing, as i always will do what i need to win. even when i believe i am thinking properly, those around me find ways of pointing out to me that i’m actually thinking thoughts that others want me to be thinking. mental manipulation, forced sissy hypnosis, etc. i push against it as hard i can so it doesn’t completely overtake me and make me mindless as it seems to do all the time. when it’s given to me, i get stuck in a trance and just have to take all of them in. if it hits the right spot, i feel like my brain shuts off and i’m just blind, deaf, and my body just takes over and takes on a life of its own. i WANTT to awake to my nails freshly painted, long wavy platinum blonde ponytails somehow adhered to my head as are those two large mounds i can’t see over. I WANT THAT STRANGE DROWSY FEELING to add to my confusion and disbelief when i see the satin with lace slutty housemaid outfit fit AND LOCKED to my now SMOOTH(?) body over a screamingly tight corset. I WANT TO PANIC when i see my stocking covered feet locked into the strappiest 6” high heels, and beautifully made face staring back at me in the mirror. i want to be forced to earn my freedom, led around on collar. FORCED TO BE IN PUBLIC WITH AN INFLATABLE BUTTPLUG UNINVITINGLY LODGED INTO MY ASS WITH VIBRATIONS BEING CONTROLLED REMOTELY BY THE HOLDER. I WANT TO BE FORCED TO GIVE UP SISSY VIRGINITY AND GIVE A BLOW JOB. I KNOW!!!!!! that i am a sissy slutty play doll that will inevitably act, behave, talk, text, and even think as an inferior woman should to her superiors. i will please all men as the sluttiest brainless bimbo would. while i will endlessly resist, i know destiny will force countless woman and countless men to use my body to their pleasure. i know my place is executing the commands i am given. i know i should be dressed at all times in a way that pleases the most amount of people. former,straight,sissy,wannabe,needing,help,through,quitting,process,former straight sissy,wannabe needing help,through quitting process